Conqueror

Anyone who knows me well knows that I love to sing, but I am absolutlely terrified of singing in front of people. I do it all the time at home, but it even took me a while to sing in front of the dear, sweet Cox's. :) Amy is perfectly amazing and that was part of it, but I truly hate singing in front of people.

So of course, without fail, I was assigned the lovely chore of singing for sacrament meeting this week. :) It was a song I already knew, which definately helped, and I was just singing the melody with Cassie, so in theory, it wasn't hard at all. The part that scared me the most, was that I knew I should be scared and have really bad butterflies, but they didn't come. I woke up this morning and had a sinking feeling of, "Oh no! It's today!" But I turned over and slept for a little longer before we met at the church for one more practice. The butterflies still didn't come, and I was frightened, because that only means that they are going to be ten times worse when they do come.

I was strangely calm the entire meeting, and I kept telling myself that I should be scared, but I wasn't. Once Sis. Munson finished speaking it was our turn, and I took a deep breath and walked up. The walk is always scary, and I had the beginning of butterflies then, but we stood there, and I looked out, and all I could see were people that loved me. They didn't care if I messed up, they probably wouldn't notice anyway. They all loved me. The beginning was a little shaky, but I did it. And the strangest thing of all, I didn't get any butterflies whatsoever. None. In the beginning I was scared, but I was singing to people I loved. I'm not sure I fully understood that everyone was listening to me, but it didn't matter. I was perfectly calm.

Today will go down in history as the day that Taylor Anderson conquered her fear of singing. I'm not afraid. Not a bit! It makes me so happy! I did it. I'm not amazing, and I'm sure I'll still get scared, but it's gone for now. :) I can do it!

I've found a bunch of scriptures that are related to fear, and I love them all, so I'm just going to list them here, but they're all amazing. :)
D&C 6:36
Deut. 31:6,8
Josh. 1:9
Dan. 10:19
2 Kings 6:16
Isa. 41:10

Creation

I did it. Krystal, I did. :P I now have a blog and I am cool like the rest of you. :) I'll try to keep it up, but I am announcing the genesis of Taylor Anderson's Blog.