Let's be frank. I learned how to swallow pills at 18, exactly 2 weeks before I moved out. I don't like medicine, and I rarely, rarely take it. Literally.
I want to become a pharmacist.
Is something seriously wrong with me? I think so.
I've been having this huge dilemma about what to do for the rest of my life, and I feel so inadequate. I feel like a kid drowning in a sea of grown up decisions and being expected to make the right one to stay afloat. Should I go to UofU or Idaho State? Should I take anatomy over the summer? Am I even cut out for anatomy? Am I going to be eaten alive by school? How in the world am I going to make it into the UofU program? It's 2nd in the nation!!! Why me? Can't I stay in my little wonderful corner of the world forever? I don't want to restrict myself, and I (like a freak) love Chemistry! Is that too much? Will someone just tell me how I'm supposed to live my life?!
I've been praying, and getting answers. Mostly I just made a decision, and it doesn't feel wrong, so I'm going to stick with it. So I'm going to apply to the PharmD program and the U. And (try) not be crushed when I get turned down the first time. Life is hard.
I'm registering for classes now (only 23 more minutes) and I'm so scared that it's not going to work out. In order to get my prerequisites done in two years I have everything planned to exactness, including a summer semester at BYU for anatomy. (And I'll be taking it with my mom, how cool/weird is that?) So I'm just waiting for some disaster to occur...
Life is complicated. I don't like this pretending to be grown up thing...
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I HATE pretending to be a grown up!
I was seriously having this same crisis last night. I freaked my roommates out by calmly asking if it would be okay for me to slit my wrists. (How many times did we joke about killing ourselves in high school?) My roommates didn't think it was funny, though, because apparently normal people don't joke about committing suicide.
I hope everything works out for you. I'm messing with the administration right now, so I understand the whole drowning sensation.
Grosland - yes. Normal people DON'T joke about suicide. ;)
Taylor- best of luck! I'm excited for you and jealous of your awesome plans. :)
And through these crazy times
It's you, it's you. You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything!
:)
OH NO!!! I highly dislike pretending to be grown up too! But don't worry! Everything will work out in the end!!
And I dido what Breanna said!!
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