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This, my friends, is life.

I FOUND THE FORKS!!!

During the past couple weeks I've done some major shopping, and I'm feeling so much better. I've found a couple forks so I wont be eating with my hands, and I even have a pot for cooking ramen noodles! I think I'll survive now! Part of my panic has come from the fact that I am leaving on August 4 to go on a trip and I'll come home on August 19. School starts one week later, and I will have barely enough time to work up the courage for goodbyes and pack all my junk into a thimble. So I have to be completely ready to go before I leave. That's about one month. The only essentials that I am missing are sheets and towels. The rest I am sick of worrying about and will figure out once the 6 of us pool everything together. :) So I'm feeling better.

But are you ever completely ready? Ready to let go of everything and start something all by yourself? I could be further away, and I could know absolutely no one. But I'm still 2 1/2 hours away and I know virtually no one. That's lame. But my roomates sound amazing, and I have maybe 3 friends going. I hope and pray that I am outgoing enough to make new friends and make it fun. I'm such a worry wart.

Utah State University

PACKING LIST:
Family Photo. Check.
Email addresses. Check.
Going Away Party. In progress...
Cell phone. Check.
Computer. Check.
Fork. Somewhere...
Cup. Next to the fork...
Really Comfy Pillow. Check.
Tissues. Check.
Free Calls Home. Check.
Everything Else. MIA

Does everyone have this problem? I feel completely and utterly unprepared and underqualified to live all by myself. I have a computer, a rice cooker, and pretty much nothing else. I'll get signed up for classes ok, I'm starting to know my roomates, but I don't have any supplies for living, and I don't have any money. Does this happen to everyone? And lucky me, I am 2 1/2 hours away from family and free laundry. I'm feeling a little scared.

For the sake of writing...

I haven't blogged in a really really long time. :) But there is nothing interesting enough in my life to talk about. Not that anyone would want to hear anyway... :) So we move to plan B. More quotes! I'll think of something philisophical later this week. :) These are the best from dear Dr. Seuss:

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams..

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind.
Some come from ahead and some come from behind.
But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see.
Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!

The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you'll go.

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life's realities.

You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go.

And will you succeed? Yes indeed, yes indeed! Ninety-eight and three-quarters percent guaranteed!

Think left and think right and think low and think high. Oh, the things you can think up if only you try!

All alone!Whether you like it or not, alone is something you'll be quite a lot

I'm afraid sometimes you'll play lonely games too, games you can't winbecause you'll play against you.

I'm sorry to sayso but, sadly it's true, that bang-ups and hang-ups can happen to you

From there to here, and here to there, funny things are everywhere.

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.

If you never did you should. These things are fun and fun is good.

You are you. Now, isn't that pleasant?

Obsession

I love quotes, a lot. :) And I just felt like diving into one of my folders and finding my favorites. These are my favorite from Winnie the Pooh, so I hope someone finds a little enjoyment out of them. :)

It's snowing still," said Eeyore gloomily.
"So it is."
"And freezing."
"Is it?"
"Yes," said Eeyore. "However," he said, brightening a little, "we haven't had an earthquake lately."

"It's not very pleasent in my corner of the world at three o'clock in the morning. But for people who like cold, wet, ugly bits it is something rather special." -Eeyore

Nobody can be uncheered with a balloon. -Winnie the Pooh

When you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and you Think of Things, you sometimes find that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside of you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it. -A. A. Milne

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
"Pooh!" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. " I just wanted to be sure of you."

It is more fun to talk to someone who doesn't use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like "What about lunch?"

Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known.

Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. - Christopher Robin

Conqueror

Anyone who knows me well knows that I love to sing, but I am absolutlely terrified of singing in front of people. I do it all the time at home, but it even took me a while to sing in front of the dear, sweet Cox's. :) Amy is perfectly amazing and that was part of it, but I truly hate singing in front of people.

So of course, without fail, I was assigned the lovely chore of singing for sacrament meeting this week. :) It was a song I already knew, which definately helped, and I was just singing the melody with Cassie, so in theory, it wasn't hard at all. The part that scared me the most, was that I knew I should be scared and have really bad butterflies, but they didn't come. I woke up this morning and had a sinking feeling of, "Oh no! It's today!" But I turned over and slept for a little longer before we met at the church for one more practice. The butterflies still didn't come, and I was frightened, because that only means that they are going to be ten times worse when they do come.

I was strangely calm the entire meeting, and I kept telling myself that I should be scared, but I wasn't. Once Sis. Munson finished speaking it was our turn, and I took a deep breath and walked up. The walk is always scary, and I had the beginning of butterflies then, but we stood there, and I looked out, and all I could see were people that loved me. They didn't care if I messed up, they probably wouldn't notice anyway. They all loved me. The beginning was a little shaky, but I did it. And the strangest thing of all, I didn't get any butterflies whatsoever. None. In the beginning I was scared, but I was singing to people I loved. I'm not sure I fully understood that everyone was listening to me, but it didn't matter. I was perfectly calm.

Today will go down in history as the day that Taylor Anderson conquered her fear of singing. I'm not afraid. Not a bit! It makes me so happy! I did it. I'm not amazing, and I'm sure I'll still get scared, but it's gone for now. :) I can do it!

I've found a bunch of scriptures that are related to fear, and I love them all, so I'm just going to list them here, but they're all amazing. :)
D&C 6:36
Deut. 31:6,8
Josh. 1:9
Dan. 10:19
2 Kings 6:16
Isa. 41:10

Creation

I did it. Krystal, I did. :P I now have a blog and I am cool like the rest of you. :) I'll try to keep it up, but I am announcing the genesis of Taylor Anderson's Blog.